A friend sent this to me for encouragement today and I wanted to share it also. Thank you to my friend that sent it to me. Your email means more to me than you could imagine.
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'He will sit as a refiner and purifier of silver.' Malachi 3:3
This verse puzzled some women in a Bible study and they wondered what this statement meant about the character and nature of God .
One of the women offered to find out the process of refining silver and get back to the group at their next Bible Study.
That week, the woman called a silversmith and made an appointment to watch him at work. She didn't mention anything about the reason for her interest beyond her curiosity about the process of refining Silver.
As she watched the silversmith, he held a piece of silver over the fire and let it heat up. He explained that in refining silver, one needed to hold the silver in the middle of the fire where the flames were hottest as to burn away all the impurities.
The woman thought about God holding us in such a hot spot; then she thought again about the verse that says: 'He sits as a refiner and purifier of silver.'
She asked the silversmith if it was true that he had to sit there in front of the fire the whole time.
The man answered that yes, he not only had to sit there holding the silver, but he had to keep his eyes on the silver the entire time it was in the fire. If the silver was left a moment too long in the flames, it would be destroyed.
The woman was silent for a moment. Then she asked the silversmith, 'How do you know when the silver is fully refined?'
He smiled at her and answered, 'Oh, that's easy -- when I see my image in it.'
If today you are feeling the heat of the fire, remember that God has his eye on you and will keep watching you until He sees His image in you.
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and it ended with...
Thank you God, for teaching me to laugh again...but please Lord, don't ever let me forget that I cried.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Friday, November 13, 2009
Storytime brought to you by Aleeyah
Title: The Eyeless Aleeyah Turned Bear
Storyteller: Aleeyah
Videographer: Mom
Storyteller: Aleeyah
Videographer: Mom
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Oh, the sweet taste of phosphates...
The other day, a friend wrote a post about her recent experience with making laundry soap. They are adopting from Ethiopia (insert the awwwing noise that people make when they have just heard that someone's having a baby) and have been looking at ways to "save a little here and there".
It got me to thinking about a book that I have sitting on my kitchen counter-always. It's called "Green up your Cleanup" (The Green House) by Jill Potvin Schoff.
I've read through it even though I think it's more suppose to be like a cookbook--a book you reference, but not necessarily sit down and read it. It does have a lot of great information though just as you would find in a cookbook. It has recipes on cleaning supplies and how to store them, alternate cleaning solutions from your normal hazard cleaning ways, and lots of information as to why you ought to avoid certain chemicals from your home.
Greening up is something that came along my way when I decided to get a parrot.
His name was Pickles. No, we don't still have him for a few reasons, but I'll save that for another day...okay, well if you for some reason desire to know-shoot me an email. BTW-I won't be waiting for that email. Moving on....
So around parrots or any other bird, it is un-advisable for you to use any kind of cleaning chemical, air fresheners, candles, or teflon pans if you wish to be able to keep your sweet, little chirping (or high-pitched, ear piercing, put cotton in your ears squawking sound that Pickles made) pet around. As even a small amount of exposure to any of these things can cause immediate death. So as a new parrot owner that spent way more on the bird and necessities than any of her full blood dogs, I didn't want to accidentally kill it.
Then (being the sharp one that I am) got to thinking, IF these "harmless" chemicals were really that harmful to a small creature, I wonder what it does to our bodies over a period of 100 (I'm being hopeful) years of lifelong exposure. Surely it couldn't be that innocent.
A few reasons why you may look into possibly going greener even if you do it in stages:
First and foremost, "Green up your Cleanup" tells us that "...there is almost no government regulations of the chemicals used in cleaning products in the United States." Think about that for a moment. The companies are allowed to do as they wish when it comes to chemicals that we expose ourselves to daily and are even able to keep those recipes as confidential.
The book also states:
"A study by the Environmental Working Group tested the umbilical cord blood of 10 American babies born in 2004 and found an average of 200 industrial chemicals and pollutants in each baby's blood."
"Phosphates are banned from most cleaning products, but automatic dishwashing detergents have an exemption and can still contain up to 20 percent phosphates. Phosphates that end up in our waterways cause algae blooms that deplete oxygen and kill off fish." (our DISHwashing soap. Dishes. Those things we EAT off of!)
"The EPA reports that levels of air pollution inside the home can be two to five times higher than outdoor levels."
Okay, so those are the more personal reasons. There are MANY environmental reasons.
Are you feeling warm and fuzzy yet?
Yeah, me neither (as I can smell the sweet smell of fabric softener lingering on my shirt. Mmmmmm....fabric softener)
SO what do we do from here? Well, personally, I think it's time for a change. It's time to try out the greener, healthier possibilities. I've had the book. I've made a few changes here and there, but I definitely think it's going to be cheaper and easier than what I'm anticipating. Probably. Maybe. I'll let you know. ;)
If you are up to the challenge, get the book and some basic supplies to get started. The must have's.
Here is what you are looking for:
Liquid soap -a mild liquid soap (something like Dr. Bronner's Castile Soap). She tells us that a little goes a long ways and a lot of the recipes have this included.
Borax located in the laundry section at the store
Baking soda
Washing soda
White distilled vinegar
Lemon juice -"fresh squeezed is the best, but bottled can be used in a pinch"
Powdered oxygen bleach
Club soda
Citric acid -can be found online or in places that sell canning supplies (also called sour salt)
Essential oils -for scenting your cleaners. "Look for ones that say 100% pure"
Alright green team. Put your hands in. Goooooooooo GREEN!
(too cheesy? yeeaahhh..probably!)
It got me to thinking about a book that I have sitting on my kitchen counter-always. It's called "Green up your Cleanup" (The Green House) by Jill Potvin Schoff.
I've read through it even though I think it's more suppose to be like a cookbook--a book you reference, but not necessarily sit down and read it. It does have a lot of great information though just as you would find in a cookbook. It has recipes on cleaning supplies and how to store them, alternate cleaning solutions from your normal hazard cleaning ways, and lots of information as to why you ought to avoid certain chemicals from your home.
Greening up is something that came along my way when I decided to get a parrot.
His name was Pickles. No, we don't still have him for a few reasons, but I'll save that for another day...okay, well if you for some reason desire to know-shoot me an email. BTW-I won't be waiting for that email. Moving on....
So around parrots or any other bird, it is un-advisable for you to use any kind of cleaning chemical, air fresheners, candles, or teflon pans if you wish to be able to keep your sweet, little chirping (or high-pitched, ear piercing, put cotton in your ears squawking sound that Pickles made) pet around. As even a small amount of exposure to any of these things can cause immediate death. So as a new parrot owner that spent way more on the bird and necessities than any of her full blood dogs, I didn't want to accidentally kill it.
Then (being the sharp one that I am) got to thinking, IF these "harmless" chemicals were really that harmful to a small creature, I wonder what it does to our bodies over a period of 100 (I'm being hopeful) years of lifelong exposure. Surely it couldn't be that innocent.
A few reasons why you may look into possibly going greener even if you do it in stages:
First and foremost, "Green up your Cleanup" tells us that "...there is almost no government regulations of the chemicals used in cleaning products in the United States." Think about that for a moment. The companies are allowed to do as they wish when it comes to chemicals that we expose ourselves to daily and are even able to keep those recipes as confidential.
The book also states:
"A study by the Environmental Working Group tested the umbilical cord blood of 10 American babies born in 2004 and found an average of 200 industrial chemicals and pollutants in each baby's blood."
"Phosphates are banned from most cleaning products, but automatic dishwashing detergents have an exemption and can still contain up to 20 percent phosphates. Phosphates that end up in our waterways cause algae blooms that deplete oxygen and kill off fish." (our DISHwashing soap. Dishes. Those things we EAT off of!)
"The EPA reports that levels of air pollution inside the home can be two to five times higher than outdoor levels."
Okay, so those are the more personal reasons. There are MANY environmental reasons.
Are you feeling warm and fuzzy yet?
Yeah, me neither (as I can smell the sweet smell of fabric softener lingering on my shirt. Mmmmmm....fabric softener)
SO what do we do from here? Well, personally, I think it's time for a change. It's time to try out the greener, healthier possibilities. I've had the book. I've made a few changes here and there, but I definitely think it's going to be cheaper and easier than what I'm anticipating. Probably. Maybe. I'll let you know. ;)
If you are up to the challenge, get the book and some basic supplies to get started. The must have's.
Here is what you are looking for:
Liquid soap -a mild liquid soap (something like Dr. Bronner's Castile Soap). She tells us that a little goes a long ways and a lot of the recipes have this included.
Borax located in the laundry section at the store
Baking soda
Washing soda
White distilled vinegar
Lemon juice -"fresh squeezed is the best, but bottled can be used in a pinch"
Powdered oxygen bleach
Club soda
Citric acid -can be found online or in places that sell canning supplies (also called sour salt)
Essential oils -for scenting your cleaners. "Look for ones that say 100% pure"
Alright green team. Put your hands in. Goooooooooo GREEN!
(too cheesy? yeeaahhh..probably!)
Surprise!!! It's NOT your birthday!!!
We were basically headed out the door around Chris' birthday in September. His birthday is on the 9th and we were leaving for Oklahoma on the 10th and Alaska on the 11th. His day got totally pushed aside for our vacation. He was fine with it, but I hated at least not giving him a birthday cake and celebrating his day. I had told him I'd make it up to him.
It had crossed my mind a few times that we didn't get a chance to do anything for it and finally when it hit me again on October 10th, Aleeyah and I devised a plan to have a birthday party for him...as a surprise. It was one of the rare times Chris had to work on a Saturday. He had said he was hoping to be home by 2pm. That gave us time to go to the store, decorate, and make cupcakes (with his favorite frosting). We rushed around the house trying to quickly put together a birthday party on a budget.
Aleeyah worked on the banner...
and helped me with the cupcakes...
and balloons...
We decorated the table...
And the kitchen area...
Everyone was in attendance...
But quickly got tired of waiting so they took a seat at the table...
Then we waited and waited and waited. We took a nap. Finally at 8:00pm, Dad was finally on his way home!
And he was super surprised when he got home!
Who wouldn't be if you were given a surprise party a MONTH after your birthday! Happy 31 babe (yet another month later! haha!)
Now Aleeyah has been throwing us random surprise parties here and there on a whim! Drawing banners and cards. Apparently, she likes the idea of surprise parties!
It had crossed my mind a few times that we didn't get a chance to do anything for it and finally when it hit me again on October 10th, Aleeyah and I devised a plan to have a birthday party for him...as a surprise. It was one of the rare times Chris had to work on a Saturday. He had said he was hoping to be home by 2pm. That gave us time to go to the store, decorate, and make cupcakes (with his favorite frosting). We rushed around the house trying to quickly put together a birthday party on a budget.
Aleeyah worked on the banner...
and helped me with the cupcakes...
and balloons...
We decorated the table...
And the kitchen area...
Everyone was in attendance...
But quickly got tired of waiting so they took a seat at the table...
Then we waited and waited and waited. We took a nap. Finally at 8:00pm, Dad was finally on his way home!
And he was super surprised when he got home!
Who wouldn't be if you were given a surprise party a MONTH after your birthday! Happy 31 babe (yet another month later! haha!)
Now Aleeyah has been throwing us random surprise parties here and there on a whim! Drawing banners and cards. Apparently, she likes the idea of surprise parties!
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Happy {meow}lloween
This year Aleeyah decided she wanted to be a cat for Halloween. Her costume was fun to put together and she was SO excited to see that I added paws to her shirt! I figured it would be cold that night and paws would be a good way to keep her hands warm. I already had everything at the house to make them so it was a very cheap and quick add on. I think this years costume was one of the cheapest Halloween costumes I've made.
Tulle and ribbon for tutu--$5
Black shirt from Target--$4
Black tights--$3
Headband and feathers for ears--$5
Tail--$4
Total of $21
Now her make-up on the other hand. I'm not sure how much it cost because I had bought some things that I didn't really need and didn't buy some stuff until last minute that I did need. Thankfully, I had 2 practice runs to do it before doing it on Halloween night. The first time was a flop (due to using the wrong stuff) and then second time turned out good for Chris' work festivities (after I picked up the other things I needed).
As I mentioned, we went up to Chris' work the day before Halloween to go trick or treating. There weren't many kids, but we had a good time anyway. Several of the teams had decorated their areas and some even dressed up themselves. Oddly, one of the areas was decorated in Christmas stuff. I'm not sure what that was all about, but they DID do a good job!
Then on Saturday we did a bunch of running around during the day and then made it home just in time to get dressed back up again, face painted, some pictures taken, and Skype with family in Oklahoma before we headed out the door for trick-or-treating. I love getting to take Aleeyah trick-or-treating. There were very few kids out around us when we went. I'm not sure if parents are mostly finding other things to do as fears creep up. Myself, I'd rather take Aleeyah trick-or-treating and replace her candy with candy I purchased before I ever said no to door-to-door knocking. It brings back such fun memories and how often out of the year do you get to go door-to-door, greeting people each time and then getting candy?
We had a wonderful time and the weather wasn't too cold or RAINING!!! Seems like it always rains on Halloween.
Aleeyah told us when her bucket was 2/3 of the way full that she was done trick-or-treating and that she had plenty of candy in her basket. So she asked if I could carry the bucket home and then promptly asked dad for a ride home.
Tulle and ribbon for tutu--$5
Black shirt from Target--$4
Black tights--$3
Headband and feathers for ears--$5
Tail--$4
Total of $21
Now her make-up on the other hand. I'm not sure how much it cost because I had bought some things that I didn't really need and didn't buy some stuff until last minute that I did need. Thankfully, I had 2 practice runs to do it before doing it on Halloween night. The first time was a flop (due to using the wrong stuff) and then second time turned out good for Chris' work festivities (after I picked up the other things I needed).
As I mentioned, we went up to Chris' work the day before Halloween to go trick or treating. There weren't many kids, but we had a good time anyway. Several of the teams had decorated their areas and some even dressed up themselves. Oddly, one of the areas was decorated in Christmas stuff. I'm not sure what that was all about, but they DID do a good job!
Then on Saturday we did a bunch of running around during the day and then made it home just in time to get dressed back up again, face painted, some pictures taken, and Skype with family in Oklahoma before we headed out the door for trick-or-treating. I love getting to take Aleeyah trick-or-treating. There were very few kids out around us when we went. I'm not sure if parents are mostly finding other things to do as fears creep up. Myself, I'd rather take Aleeyah trick-or-treating and replace her candy with candy I purchased before I ever said no to door-to-door knocking. It brings back such fun memories and how often out of the year do you get to go door-to-door, greeting people each time and then getting candy?
We had a wonderful time and the weather wasn't too cold or RAINING!!! Seems like it always rains on Halloween.
Aleeyah told us when her bucket was 2/3 of the way full that she was done trick-or-treating and that she had plenty of candy in her basket. So she asked if I could carry the bucket home and then promptly asked dad for a ride home.
September Fall Photoshoot
Most of you have probably already saw the pics of Aleeyah's Fall photoshoot, but I wanted to post them here for those of you that aren't on Facebook and haven't noticed the link to them pics on my side bar. They were taken at the end of September in a little town park not too far from us. Of course, I had to add a few silly ones we got along the way!
Friday, October 23, 2009
Happy Fri(y)day!
Aleeyah asked me what day it was today. When I told her it was Friday, she got REALLY excited! Then she went on with total enthusiasm that on Friday's you get to eat fries. It took me about a minute before it finally hit me as to what she was saying. Happy FRY-day!!!
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Who doesn't love the zoo?
Obviously, I haven't been the best blogger around here as of late. I have lots of pics to update here-so probably not much bloggage and more pictures. You can have your moment to sigh in relief!
Back in August when we went to Oklahoma for Aleeyah's Birthday Party, we were able to go to the zoo with Cousin Mason and Aunt Lauren! We had a great time, but only a few pics to share!
Back in August when we went to Oklahoma for Aleeyah's Birthday Party, we were able to go to the zoo with Cousin Mason and Aunt Lauren! We had a great time, but only a few pics to share!
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Home
Tonight, at 7:56, our final plane landed in Oklahoma after a long journey of ships and planes, seas and mountains. We are home.
It may be a bit confusing for some. Our house is in Kansas City, so some might think we aren't home yet. No, the journey to our house comes tomorrow. But as the cheesy saying goes,
Home is where the heart is.
Oklahoma has been my home for all my life up until a year ago. I still say I'm going back home when I talk of coming back to visit. Most of our family also calls Oklahoma-home. So when talking about love and family-the phrase still applies. We had some amazing family that helped make this last weeks of vacation possible for us. For reasons, I haven't shared here yet.
Alaska brought many things for us. Quietness. Togetherness. Peace. Sleep. Relaxation. Tranquility. Amazement. Worship. Spark. Laughter. As a girl with skin as sweet as milk and with hair glazed with honey, waited for her mom and dad to come home. She laughed and played with family as she waited, but still-she waited.
For us and for her, Chris and I relived and rekindled in Alaska. Alone. We enjoyed evening nights together, wonderful new adventures, but most of all-holding hands. Our hands have been filled with a bouncing little girl and things like diapers, toys, cups, and much more. Chris and I couldn't help but to swing our arms walking down the airport terminal, laughing, at the craziness of it all. Two adult hands. Swinging. With no child in between.
We loved our time together, but our hearts were never 'home' and then day 4 came and went, and our hearts began to long for 'home'. And there I realized even more--Our 'home' is with her. Our sweet baby girl.
We have lots to share with everyone from our Alaskan adventures, but as for tonight
It may be a bit confusing for some. Our house is in Kansas City, so some might think we aren't home yet. No, the journey to our house comes tomorrow. But as the cheesy saying goes,
Home is where the heart is.
Oklahoma has been my home for all my life up until a year ago. I still say I'm going back home when I talk of coming back to visit. Most of our family also calls Oklahoma-home. So when talking about love and family-the phrase still applies. We had some amazing family that helped make this last weeks of vacation possible for us. For reasons, I haven't shared here yet.
Alaska brought many things for us. Quietness. Togetherness. Peace. Sleep. Relaxation. Tranquility. Amazement. Worship. Spark. Laughter. As a girl with skin as sweet as milk and with hair glazed with honey, waited for her mom and dad to come home. She laughed and played with family as she waited, but still-she waited.
For us and for her, Chris and I relived and rekindled in Alaska. Alone. We enjoyed evening nights together, wonderful new adventures, but most of all-holding hands. Our hands have been filled with a bouncing little girl and things like diapers, toys, cups, and much more. Chris and I couldn't help but to swing our arms walking down the airport terminal, laughing, at the craziness of it all. Two adult hands. Swinging. With no child in between.
We loved our time together, but our hearts were never 'home' and then day 4 came and went, and our hearts began to long for 'home'. And there I realized even more--Our 'home' is with her. Our sweet baby girl.
We have lots to share with everyone from our Alaskan adventures, but as for tonight
Goodnight sun. Goodnight moon.
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Unplugged
It doesn't happen very often. Most of the time it's just sleeping.
My phone is getting the same treatment (for most of the time).
I'm going a place of quietness and relaxation. To reconnect.
I'll check back in some time after the 20th.
Have a great week!
Friday, August 28, 2009
4th Birthday Party!!
It's been almost 2 weeks since Aleeyah's birthday party in Oklahoma and she is technically 4 years old and 2 weeks today! I can't believe she is already 4. For some reason, that number hit a little hard this year. It's like when she turned 3, she was still just a toddler, but 4 means one more year until school.
I think she enjoyed her birthday party very much! She is still talking about it and keeps asking when she is going to turn 5. I keep telling her that she has to finish being 4 first.
Before I go into the birthday party festivities, I first have to give a shout out to my sis-in-law. She rocks! For many years now, she has been in the one in the kitchen with me during Thanksgiving and Christmas dinners and has helped me plan Aleeyah's birthday parties. A life saver. She makes some fabulous cakes! She made 3 out of 4 birthday cakes so far (they were in Florida for her 3rd birthday or else it probably would have been all her cakes).
Here is:
Year #1
Year #2
I always enjoy designing them with her, but this year I told her it was all in her hands, but that I wanted to do fondant circles on white frosting.
And this is what she came up with:
We've always broke it out where she does most of all the cake and I work mostly on the fondant. I love working with that stuff, but I loved working with clay as a kid.
Isn't it fabulous?!?!
Like I said, she rocks!
We had Aleeyah's party in Oklahoma again this year. We were looking forward to seeing some friends and family we haven't seen in a while and hang out pool side with them, but it takes a lot of extra work to plan a party out of state. Thankfully, Lauren, loves parties as much as I do and was there to assist me with in-state details. We got everything we could do, done and all that needed to happen next was get to Oklahoma.
Chris had to work on Friday, so we had to make a late night trip. We didn't get into the OKC area until almost 2:00am. We were pooped. It was especially hard knowing that we would have to turn right back around on Sunday afternoon to make the drive back.
Well, we were about 30 minutes out from the house with 5 more hours to go, when it hit me that we forgot something. Aleeyah's bathing suit. For her swim party. The one that just happen to match her party oh-so-well. In August. The end of the swimming suit season. Most swimsuits gone.
What did I do?
I didn't want to drive back home and add an extra hour to our drive as it was already 8:00pm, so I called Lauren for help again. She graciously said she would head out to try and find one (with my new nephew). She called again at 9:56pm (after hitting several, and I mean several, stores) to ask which one I would approve of. We narrowed them down and she came home with a couple for me to look at.
We got to their house, picked one, and headed to bed. Exhausted.
The next morning we began the birthday party extravaganza. The party wasn't until later in the afternoon-so it gave us some time to work on the cake, get ready to go, and head out for some last minute details, then head to the facility.
2:00pm was showtime!
(sorry, for picture overload, but I couldn't narrow them down anymore!)
We had a great time!
Thanks to all that came!!!
I think she enjoyed her birthday party very much! She is still talking about it and keeps asking when she is going to turn 5. I keep telling her that she has to finish being 4 first.
Before I go into the birthday party festivities, I first have to give a shout out to my sis-in-law. She rocks! For many years now, she has been in the one in the kitchen with me during Thanksgiving and Christmas dinners and has helped me plan Aleeyah's birthday parties. A life saver. She makes some fabulous cakes! She made 3 out of 4 birthday cakes so far (they were in Florida for her 3rd birthday or else it probably would have been all her cakes).
Here is:
Year #1
Year #2
I always enjoy designing them with her, but this year I told her it was all in her hands, but that I wanted to do fondant circles on white frosting.
And this is what she came up with:
We've always broke it out where she does most of all the cake and I work mostly on the fondant. I love working with that stuff, but I loved working with clay as a kid.
Isn't it fabulous?!?!
Like I said, she rocks!
We had Aleeyah's party in Oklahoma again this year. We were looking forward to seeing some friends and family we haven't seen in a while and hang out pool side with them, but it takes a lot of extra work to plan a party out of state. Thankfully, Lauren, loves parties as much as I do and was there to assist me with in-state details. We got everything we could do, done and all that needed to happen next was get to Oklahoma.
Chris had to work on Friday, so we had to make a late night trip. We didn't get into the OKC area until almost 2:00am. We were pooped. It was especially hard knowing that we would have to turn right back around on Sunday afternoon to make the drive back.
Well, we were about 30 minutes out from the house with 5 more hours to go, when it hit me that we forgot something. Aleeyah's bathing suit. For her swim party. The one that just happen to match her party oh-so-well. In August. The end of the swimming suit season. Most swimsuits gone.
What did I do?
I didn't want to drive back home and add an extra hour to our drive as it was already 8:00pm, so I called Lauren for help again. She graciously said she would head out to try and find one (with my new nephew). She called again at 9:56pm (after hitting several, and I mean several, stores) to ask which one I would approve of. We narrowed them down and she came home with a couple for me to look at.
We got to their house, picked one, and headed to bed. Exhausted.
The next morning we began the birthday party extravaganza. The party wasn't until later in the afternoon-so it gave us some time to work on the cake, get ready to go, and head out for some last minute details, then head to the facility.
2:00pm was showtime!
(sorry, for picture overload, but I couldn't narrow them down anymore!)
We had a great time!
Thanks to all that came!!!
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
My Little JAG Cheerleader
Last night, I worked on a craft project to post for Wednesday's Craft Table over on Jagged Edge Boutique. The project I was working on was a crayon apron.
(see more pictures here)
I love crafting stuff, but it has deemed quite the challenge when it comes to Aleeyah and myself. Not necessarily because she wants the stuff I make, but because I want to give her the things I make. She just gets SO excited when I make stuff and it makes me want to give them to her. Thankfully, she is very good about understanding when I say it's for somebody else. Except for she is catching on and keeps asking if it is for Mason (her newest cousin).
Chris makes jokes about how God knew that I needed a little girl to get giddy about all things girly and he is probably right. When I show Chris something I've just made, he says , "cool" without a capital C nor an exclamation point. I love him, but most of the time we don't get excited about the same things. Aleeyah on the other hand, will get excited with me over the littlest things-which I LOVE. She's my girly-girl that doesn't mind getting her hands dirty.
So far, our new endeavor has been going well. I've been in the mist of trying to get some other projects done that were asked for before we "opened" Jagged Edge Boutique. And of course, getting all that done in between moving and planning a 4 year old's Birthday party created another challenge. We are getting settled in now though and the party was this last weekend in Oklahoma.
I'm excited to be able to start making some steps forward in making our adoption plans, a reality.
To steal one lovely lady's quote on her bio page:
When I stand before God at the end of my life I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left and could say “I used everything you gave me” ~Erma Bombeck
(see more pictures here)
I love crafting stuff, but it has deemed quite the challenge when it comes to Aleeyah and myself. Not necessarily because she wants the stuff I make, but because I want to give her the things I make. She just gets SO excited when I make stuff and it makes me want to give them to her. Thankfully, she is very good about understanding when I say it's for somebody else. Except for she is catching on and keeps asking if it is for Mason (her newest cousin).
Chris makes jokes about how God knew that I needed a little girl to get giddy about all things girly and he is probably right. When I show Chris something I've just made, he says , "cool" without a capital C nor an exclamation point. I love him, but most of the time we don't get excited about the same things. Aleeyah on the other hand, will get excited with me over the littlest things-which I LOVE. She's my girly-girl that doesn't mind getting her hands dirty.
So far, our new endeavor has been going well. I've been in the mist of trying to get some other projects done that were asked for before we "opened" Jagged Edge Boutique. And of course, getting all that done in between moving and planning a 4 year old's Birthday party created another challenge. We are getting settled in now though and the party was this last weekend in Oklahoma.
I'm excited to be able to start making some steps forward in making our adoption plans, a reality.
To steal one lovely lady's quote on her bio page:
When I stand before God at the end of my life I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left and could say “I used everything you gave me” ~Erma Bombeck
Friday, August 14, 2009
To my Peet
Four years ago, at 10:30am, you were brought into the world 3 weeks early. Weighing in at 6 lbs 8 oz. and 19 1/2 inches long, you felt so tiny in our arms. We had been waiting for that day for a very long time, but we couldn't prepare ourselves for the feelings that overcame us when you looked at us for the first time with your big, beautiful eyes. The same eyes that have shared every emotion that you are feeling since the day you were born. The same eyes that can quickly break your daddy when you want something. I imagine that by time you read this, you will have mastered this trick and wouldn't be able to county how many times it worked.
You have brought your daddy and me SO much joy to our lives. Our love was strong and deep before you were born, but you brought our love to another level we never knew we had and we continue to be amazed by you daily. Love you baby girl.
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These are a few quotes taken from letters and cards we received when you were born:
"Every first experience that you accomplish will be recorded and will bring endless joy to your parents. Welcome to this world full of love for you." --Great Aunt Janine, Katie, and Missy
"When you awake at 2am, you haven't showered in days and your hubby is snoring asleep in the next room, remember she is going to be your best friend and spending this special time with her will fill your heart with love. Cherish it." --Kari Sweatt
"The love in your heart that you can give, is more than you can give in one lifetime." --Grandma Donna
"You will love her more than anything else in the world" --Lisa Smith
"May God bless you both during this wonderful time in your life! She will be a true blessing for everyone" --Aunt Lauren
"We love you all forever and a day." --Mimi and Papa
"May all your wishes and dreams come true plus much more." --Peepaw and Cody
"Always look to God in happiness, sadness, frustration, and love." --Amber and Rickey
"Get ready and let the "fun" begin! May the Lord's hand always be on your sweet baby girl!" --Richard and Brenda
"You guys made one of the most beautiful peoples I've ever seen before!" --Uncle Josh
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Here are some fun facts about you right now:
**You have a few different nicknames and these are just a few--Your daddy has called you gooey buns since your first month of life. We were watching an episode of CSI and they were investigating at a cinnamon roll company named Gooey Buns. It was perfect representation for all those diapers you went through. Your Uncle Nathan nicknamed you Leelee and is commonly used by your Mimi and here and there from your momma. Peet comes from me and it throws most people off, but some times you even correct me if I call you something different. Peet comes from me calling you sweetie, then sweetie pea, then sweetie peet, then just peet. So in case, you are still wondering-there ya have it.
**You are a smarty pants and LOVE to learn new things. Your most recent achievement includes learning where your phalanges, metatarsals, tarsals, clavicle, skull, rib cage, femur, and patella are within a couple of days. You are still working on the others.
**When you are really sleepy, you play with your hair.
**You call your freckles, polka dots and the one on your belly, freckle belly.
**Your favorite song is still the ABC song.
**You love toys that have lots of parts to separate, organize, make patterns, etc.
**One of your favorite things to do is when we go on a frog hunts at night with me and your daddy.
**You call every kid you see, your friend.
**You have been caught more times then I can count, eating peanut butter out of the jar with a spoon.
**The way you say refrigerator still cracks me and your daddy up so we fail at correcting it. Chig-arator.
**You think the word explode is rumbode. So around a week ago, you got really upset and were crying saying that your drink rumbode.
Happy 4th Birthday!!!!!!
See Birthday Countdown from last year for more pics or watch the video below.
Monday, August 10, 2009
It's a "girl brain" kind of thing...
Next month on the 17th will mark a year since we announced that adoption had been on our hearts for several months. We announced our plans and hopes of where we would be in a year. We did this because we knew adoption fund raising ideas and the discussions of the adoption would arise and we didn't want it to come as a surprise.
This last year has brought some big changes in our lives, but not quite in the areas we had anticipated. Definitely things to get excited about and other things to be not so excited over. There have been a whole mill of emotions involving our plans to adopt.
How will we do as parents of two?
Is Aleeyah ready for a sibling?
How could we possibly afford the adoption costs?
Are we making the best choice for everyone involved-both ourselves and the child?
Is this what GOD wants for our lives?
How could we possibly afford the adoption costs?
Is this what God wants for our lives?
How could we possibly....
So many emotions. So many thoughts. So many questions.
So many doubts.
I've doubted whether or not it really is God's plan for us because it hasn't come easy even at such an early stage. I've doubted whether we should be parents of two. I've doubted how we are going to come up with the money while still trying to give in other areas, pay for Chris' schooling, and take care of other daily finances.
Doubt. Doubt. Doubt.
And boy does satan like a good dose of doubt.
When I really look at it, I believe with everything in my heart that we will make good parents of two. We have enough love to give for even more. And I really believe that Aleeyah would make a wonderful sister.
I also believe that God put it on our hearts for a reason and not that we just thought it was a cool idea. I think HE brought me to a place of compassion and desire to help in Africa. And I also think there is a reason why my uterus has not longed to birth any more children even though I always thought I'd be a mom of 3 biological children, but my heart is joyous over the thought of adoption.
A sort of peace came about our decision when two of my closest friends asked me what was holding us back--what would need to change for the next step? I didn't have to think for the answer. No reason to. I knew exactly what my answer was.
Finances. That's it.
If the finances were there, I'd be running to the adoption agency (figuratively, that is :) it's a bit far away!)
For me, the answer to that question showed me where we stand. It shows where we have come emotionally over the decision. God has granted us a year to really think about our decision so far and we haven't taken it lightly.
Chris and I chose to wait until after we were married for 5 years before having Aleeyah. Again, God granted us that time to really think about our goals and decisions. Was it always easy to wait? No. Did at times I just want to get started? Yes. BUT I still stand to this day with the emotional peace that came with knowing that we were 100% ready for her to be a part of our family.
It's been pointed out to me that maybe adoption isn't God's plan for our life since it's been an emotional roller coaster and the financial side of it hasn't come together. It's easy to believe that. It's easy to think that if God wanted this for our lives then He would make it known by handing us everything with little effort on our own part--then and only then would we truly know it was His will.
And there has been times in this journey were my understanding has wavered and I've believed that very thing.
Chris hasn't. He's cool headed like that.
But me...I have a "girl brain" (that's for you Jess!). It happens.
Then I stop to think about how God used our years of being childless to teach us and grow us and how I couldn't be more happy than to have followed His direction in bringing Aleeyah into the world. I see how He has already began making these changes again in our lives before we become parents of two. Chris is finally able to go back to school and will be graduating with his Masters within the next year and a half. Aleeyah will be headed to school next year-allowing me to start working on figuring out what I'm going to do when I grow up. BUT more importantly, He's molding our hearts and preparing them for another journey.
And when I'm still teetering on the brink of doubt, I try to think about Paul's ministry. I don't think anyone could say that Paul had it easy after he decided to follow God's direction and will. He wasn't just handed each mission packaged up with a silver bow, but one thing remained throughout-God was by his side.
When I look in the right direction, I see God at work, setting things and ideas into place for our family and plans. I see Him putting people in place, to give me support and encouragement through my bouts of doubt. I feel Him present in what may be a very long journey.
Though doubt and impatience lurks around the corner, I have faith that He is providing means now in some disguised ways and that like Paul, it won't always be easy, but He will guide, protect, and deliver us.
On a side note, but totally related, A dear friend of mind sent me THIS link a couple of days ago as some encouragement. It was some much needed inspiration and encouragement to live by faith instead of on the pathway of doubt.
Then this evening she provided THIS link. Words just cannot describe.
This last year has brought some big changes in our lives, but not quite in the areas we had anticipated. Definitely things to get excited about and other things to be not so excited over. There have been a whole mill of emotions involving our plans to adopt.
How will we do as parents of two?
Is Aleeyah ready for a sibling?
How could we possibly afford the adoption costs?
Are we making the best choice for everyone involved-both ourselves and the child?
Is this what GOD wants for our lives?
How could we possibly afford the adoption costs?
Is this what God wants for our lives?
How could we possibly....
So many emotions. So many thoughts. So many questions.
So many doubts.
I've doubted whether or not it really is God's plan for us because it hasn't come easy even at such an early stage. I've doubted whether we should be parents of two. I've doubted how we are going to come up with the money while still trying to give in other areas, pay for Chris' schooling, and take care of other daily finances.
Doubt. Doubt. Doubt.
And boy does satan like a good dose of doubt.
When I really look at it, I believe with everything in my heart that we will make good parents of two. We have enough love to give for even more. And I really believe that Aleeyah would make a wonderful sister.
I also believe that God put it on our hearts for a reason and not that we just thought it was a cool idea. I think HE brought me to a place of compassion and desire to help in Africa. And I also think there is a reason why my uterus has not longed to birth any more children even though I always thought I'd be a mom of 3 biological children, but my heart is joyous over the thought of adoption.
A sort of peace came about our decision when two of my closest friends asked me what was holding us back--what would need to change for the next step? I didn't have to think for the answer. No reason to. I knew exactly what my answer was.
Finances. That's it.
If the finances were there, I'd be running to the adoption agency (figuratively, that is :) it's a bit far away!)
For me, the answer to that question showed me where we stand. It shows where we have come emotionally over the decision. God has granted us a year to really think about our decision so far and we haven't taken it lightly.
Chris and I chose to wait until after we were married for 5 years before having Aleeyah. Again, God granted us that time to really think about our goals and decisions. Was it always easy to wait? No. Did at times I just want to get started? Yes. BUT I still stand to this day with the emotional peace that came with knowing that we were 100% ready for her to be a part of our family.
It's been pointed out to me that maybe adoption isn't God's plan for our life since it's been an emotional roller coaster and the financial side of it hasn't come together. It's easy to believe that. It's easy to think that if God wanted this for our lives then He would make it known by handing us everything with little effort on our own part--then and only then would we truly know it was His will.
And there has been times in this journey were my understanding has wavered and I've believed that very thing.
Chris hasn't. He's cool headed like that.
But me...I have a "girl brain" (that's for you Jess!). It happens.
Then I stop to think about how God used our years of being childless to teach us and grow us and how I couldn't be more happy than to have followed His direction in bringing Aleeyah into the world. I see how He has already began making these changes again in our lives before we become parents of two. Chris is finally able to go back to school and will be graduating with his Masters within the next year and a half. Aleeyah will be headed to school next year-allowing me to start working on figuring out what I'm going to do when I grow up. BUT more importantly, He's molding our hearts and preparing them for another journey.
And when I'm still teetering on the brink of doubt, I try to think about Paul's ministry. I don't think anyone could say that Paul had it easy after he decided to follow God's direction and will. He wasn't just handed each mission packaged up with a silver bow, but one thing remained throughout-God was by his side.
When I look in the right direction, I see God at work, setting things and ideas into place for our family and plans. I see Him putting people in place, to give me support and encouragement through my bouts of doubt. I feel Him present in what may be a very long journey.
Though doubt and impatience lurks around the corner, I have faith that He is providing means now in some disguised ways and that like Paul, it won't always be easy, but He will guide, protect, and deliver us.
On a side note, but totally related, A dear friend of mind sent me THIS link a couple of days ago as some encouragement. It was some much needed inspiration and encouragement to live by faith instead of on the pathway of doubt.
Then this evening she provided THIS link. Words just cannot describe.
Friday, August 7, 2009
Happy 9..scratch that..10 year anniversary love!
Last year on our wedding anniversary, I wrote this blog post and video.
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Nine years ago today, Chris and I stood barefoot in front of all our friends, family, and God and committed our lives to each other. It was a very hot day in August and the wedding was outside, but we all had a great time! After 9 years, I don't remember what we told each other exactly, but I do know that I love him more now than what I ever thought I could.
We met in June 1996 and he officially became my boyfriend on July 13, 1996. I was a young 15 years old and he was about to turn 18. I cannot say that we were inseparable until just months before he was to leave for Harding University. Before that we only saw each other a couple of times a week at church. He left for Harding and as much as we wanted things to workout us, our family, and our friends all had our share of doubts. His time at Harding was hard for us and I was going through the hardest time in my life with family stuff. We could only talk to once a week on the phone, but we always had letters going to each other through snail mail (a time when not everyone had cell phones, computers, internet, email, and instant messaging). I remember getting in trouble on more than one occasion for racking up the long distance phone bill. Sorry Dad!!! He eventually returned home and continued his education at a local university. I remember knowing in my heart that if we could make it through a long distance relationship at such a young age then we can make it through anything!
Shortly after I graduated high school, on August 7, 1999 we got married. I remember many people in our lives that told us that we would never make it. That we wouldn't last more than a few years. And honestly, seeing a young couple getting married so early in their lives, I don't know that I wouldn't have thought that very thing myself. But what we have together is more than the average marriage these days.
Since our marriage, Chris has worked night jobs or jobs that required travel off and on until just recently. I see now how God used our time apart prior to our marriage to prepare us for what was to come. Our bond remains strong no matter where Chris is, but I have thoroughly enjoyed him being home all the time now!
Of course, 5 years into our marriage, God gave us our little Aleeyah. We feel so blessed that we were able to have our first 5 years together to really get to know each other more as husband and wife, but feel even more blessed to have her in our lives. Chris has become a great husband to me and a wonderful father to our baby girl!
Hope you enjoy the slideshow of our 12 years together!
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And a year later, I feel the same about my "old" man. In fact, this year has been amazing. Since he is no longer traveling in his job, we have really got to feel the full effect of being a family and ever more grateful for him for SO many reasons.
Our hearts are still young and in love and nothing makes us feel more in love than laughing together. He is still the one that I love spending the most time with (him and my girl, that is). He never complains about having to work so that we will be provided for and so that Aleeyah and I can spend these early years of her life together. He is so enthusiastic about getting his Master's degree so that not only can we be taken care of long term, but so that we can set our children up for a more financially stable future. He lets me thing short term while he thinks long term.
He can sometimes be hard to break because he is shy (most people just think he's angry or not friendly), but once that's broken you might often wonder who the 13 year old kid is inside that 31 year old body and (most days :) ) I love that about him--I think it even makes him a better father. Just so young at heart!
I love him more than the words on this blog will ever be able to describe.
As the saying goes,
We don't always have it all together, but together we have it all!
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Nine years ago today, Chris and I stood barefoot in front of all our friends, family, and God and committed our lives to each other. It was a very hot day in August and the wedding was outside, but we all had a great time! After 9 years, I don't remember what we told each other exactly, but I do know that I love him more now than what I ever thought I could.
We met in June 1996 and he officially became my boyfriend on July 13, 1996. I was a young 15 years old and he was about to turn 18. I cannot say that we were inseparable until just months before he was to leave for Harding University. Before that we only saw each other a couple of times a week at church. He left for Harding and as much as we wanted things to workout us, our family, and our friends all had our share of doubts. His time at Harding was hard for us and I was going through the hardest time in my life with family stuff. We could only talk to once a week on the phone, but we always had letters going to each other through snail mail (a time when not everyone had cell phones, computers, internet, email, and instant messaging). I remember getting in trouble on more than one occasion for racking up the long distance phone bill. Sorry Dad!!! He eventually returned home and continued his education at a local university. I remember knowing in my heart that if we could make it through a long distance relationship at such a young age then we can make it through anything!
Shortly after I graduated high school, on August 7, 1999 we got married. I remember many people in our lives that told us that we would never make it. That we wouldn't last more than a few years. And honestly, seeing a young couple getting married so early in their lives, I don't know that I wouldn't have thought that very thing myself. But what we have together is more than the average marriage these days.
Since our marriage, Chris has worked night jobs or jobs that required travel off and on until just recently. I see now how God used our time apart prior to our marriage to prepare us for what was to come. Our bond remains strong no matter where Chris is, but I have thoroughly enjoyed him being home all the time now!
Of course, 5 years into our marriage, God gave us our little Aleeyah. We feel so blessed that we were able to have our first 5 years together to really get to know each other more as husband and wife, but feel even more blessed to have her in our lives. Chris has become a great husband to me and a wonderful father to our baby girl!
Hope you enjoy the slideshow of our 12 years together!
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And a year later, I feel the same about my "old" man. In fact, this year has been amazing. Since he is no longer traveling in his job, we have really got to feel the full effect of being a family and ever more grateful for him for SO many reasons.
Our hearts are still young and in love and nothing makes us feel more in love than laughing together. He is still the one that I love spending the most time with (him and my girl, that is). He never complains about having to work so that we will be provided for and so that Aleeyah and I can spend these early years of her life together. He is so enthusiastic about getting his Master's degree so that not only can we be taken care of long term, but so that we can set our children up for a more financially stable future. He lets me thing short term while he thinks long term.
He can sometimes be hard to break because he is shy (most people just think he's angry or not friendly), but once that's broken you might often wonder who the 13 year old kid is inside that 31 year old body and (most days :) ) I love that about him--I think it even makes him a better father. Just so young at heart!
I love him more than the words on this blog will ever be able to describe.
As the saying goes,
We don't always have it all together, but together we have it all!
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